This afternoon was a trip to the dentist. My dentist is so awesome! All of them in the office are very caring and make sure I am extremely comfortable. There are a few challenges when I go in they have to deal with, especially the vertigo.
Today I was asked to update my medical history, so of course I need to tell him I am working through PTSD along with the rest of the items he knows. I saw a flash, of concern, (I teared) then he re-composed and he asks me a few questions in regards to it. How did it come to be? I responded, telling him the very short 20 second version or less.
“You taking any medication for it.”
“Nope, I didn’t want to.”
“You getting help?”
“Yes, I am, I have an amazing therapist.”
“Ok, good, we will get you done in no time.”
He has known me for quite a long time and I saw the care in his face and in the other people in the office, while I have had to move these appointments constantly till I was up for it. Today I still didn’t feel up for it but went anyway so that I can smile my pearly whites again.
It is a very slow ride back to be in the correct chair position while I adjust. They get me snuggled into my blanket, rolled towels behind my back and neck, safety glasses on and a dam in my mouth. I listen to my classical music and can feel both of them right by my side. I tear a few times but managed to keep deep breathing through it. I kept thinking it’s ok; you are just about done. Focus on the music. Listen to the melody.
They work quite quickly and had me completed in forty minutes. I am very froze; drooling and ready for a nap. After they complete all the necessary items, he asks me how my teeth feel? I laugh, (more of a snort, part of my nose is frozen) but say I only feel my Mick Jagger lips. They are quite large. I normally would have taken a picture but with a frozen eye its a bit much.
I am now home relaxing my frozen nose, eye and mouth. Mr. Jones has made me soup and I bib myself up for the musical slurping talents I have. I burn myself a few times, I laugh, slurp some more and burn myself again. Due to my nerves it takes a while for the freezing to come out, so I think I will crawl in for an early bedtime and recover. This way tomorrow I can remind myself it truly is Thursday and plan my weekend or plan to do nothing, whatever I need.
Due to the emotionality an appointment creates for me, I will keep this short, as I am off now. I found this quote and thought how smart it was for everyday life. Today I am most grateful for the caring individuals who look after my health.
“My dentist once told me that letting go is like pulling a tooth. When it was pulled out, you’re relieved, but how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it wasn’t hurting you doesn’t mean you didn’t notice it. It leaves a gap and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while, but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you so much pain. therefore, move on and let go.” Unknown
Love always the frozen one eyed, snorting, Mick Jagger lipped Woman in Process
P.S That penguin’s eyes look just like mine!