It’s been an early day, a long flight; the sunshine was on the horizon as I flew halfway across the country for work and I am excited for the upcoming sessions to learn more new areas of expertise.
While in this burb area I had an opportunity to connect with an old friend. She was one who had seen some pretty messy things with me over the years and it was as if I saw her yesterday when we started talking. It has been too long!
We locate a Thai place that is in an old house not far from the hotel. The wine is poured, the laughter comes and we jump back and forth on all the items we cannot wait to share with each other.
The rest of the people kept looking at us as we cracked up. The night passes quickly and the restaurant is closing; I find I am now disappointed we didn’t have more time, but so grateful for the time we had.
I will make a point to travel this way to continue our adventures as I value her in my life. We seemed to find each other when we both needed the other.
They say people come into your lives when you need each other and then they travel on to complete their journey, I love that our paths keep crossing.
This night I met new friends from our sessions. I was my usual dorky self, and for some reason I felt drawn to a few people. They have a story and I could feel it. It truly is amazing how the universe works in divine ways to line it all up.
“There will always be a reason why you meet people. Either you need to change your life, or you’re the one that’ll change theirs.”
Each of us crossing paths of the other, one amazing woman previously worked for the MS Society, boom, connection as I was a past President and hey, the shaking in my arms and body, gave us lots to chat about. I have to look up to the heavens above and ask how he just performed this miracle, oh who am I kidding I have been seeing many a miracles.
There was another awesome feisty and articulating, expressive soul that was beautiful. She is the doppelganger of an old friend. I am in awe of these great individuals and feel like destiny is intervening again. They are all changing my world, and may not even know it.
I listened, I laughed and I felt at home. I think that was so comforting as sometimes, the worry comes in if I can truly be myself and will I suffer from anxiety and the too people-y feeling I get.
I gave myself a goal last night, I would go for dinner, if it was too much for me, I would excuse myself, but I also wanted to get to know three people. I can check that off my list, as there was myself and four others. Conversations flowed, laughter filled the air, immediately and I could feel the tension my body holds, lighten. I didn’t have to carry the weight on my shoulders, no burdens tonight, I could let it go.
When the one lovely individual says I deal with depression; as we were in our get to know stage, I laughed, pointed to myself and said PTSD here. I think right there we were on the same path, kindred souls, both knowing how the other has to handle some aspects. There was this mutual understanding of respect.
The past week, I have said it three times; that this is what I am dealing with. One person tonight was discussing how people say MS doesn’t have a hold on me. I feel the same, I am not defined by these items. They are circumstances of having holes in my brain and a long list for the other just too much to mention.
Yup there are days where I think for the love of God, why and then it passes. Why not me, why not someone with support, I will carry that burden so they don’t have to. Why not, as now I am someone who is trying to change the world, because she sees things differently; life is not the same.
So having these burdens is not joyful; but the perspective it has provided, is a blessing in sheep’s clothing. All I can say, is I can do absolutely anything, and watch me knock this ball out of the park. Here is to completing a home run tomorrow.
“I love meeting new people with a similar mind and vibe that’s worth my time; it’s always nice exploring inner personalities.” Unknown
Love always, the beaming, knock it out of the fricking park, Woman in Process